“I hated myself, never appreciated who I was, and always saw myself as a failure.”
Hello, my name is Grace. It all started when I was on the call with my friend Pacifique telling me how she found a team of youth that is spirit filled and zealous for Christ. I couldn’t believe her, the next day I joined to see what she was talking about. Little did I know that it was my divine appointment. I liked what I witnessed that night, and I’ve never missed a service since.
I was so blessed to meet great men and women of God with genuine hearts who loved me with my brokenness and prayed for me until I experienced a breakthrough. At first, I was a little hesitant because Prayer Warriors is a zoom prayer group. I had joined uncountable groups over the pandemic, and none changed my spiritual life. I thought I loved Christ, served him diligently and was on the right track. It was more of checking off the list without personal encounters with Christ or spiritual dimension. I lacked a fundamental understanding of who I was in Christ. Indeed I had reached a zone of stagnation.
My heart was so heavy and disappointed, but I never spoke about it. I had many wounds from the past, grudges from severe childhood traumas that created unforgiveness in me. All these had left scars, brokenness, and so much bitterness in my life. I was a happy soul in public and cried under my pillow at night. I celebrated my friends but didn’t believe I could experience any breakthrough. I hated myself, never appreciated who I was, and always saw myself as a failure. I believed in what society labelled me as. I used to classify myself as a ‘hated one’ and believed that some people are born to live miserably till death. I entertained the enemy's lies for a very long time. I had tasted the goodness of God, but most of the time, I said to myself, “God was not fair; He lies; He favors some people and hates others.”
But I thank God for the heart of fatherhood and pastorship that Prophet Vincent has. I never shared my struggles with him, but deep down, I knew God had revealed to him how bitter and unhappy I was. All my words reflected hurt and trauma, but he approached me with so much indescribable love and kindness. I remember telling him, “I am not planning to get married, God is sometimes not fair, and no Godly men exist.” He smiled tenderly, prayed for me and encouraged me to seek God. It took me quite some time to believe that he was not pretending the way he loved God and understand his crazy faith (which I am still learning). I thought he lived a perfect life, which was why he always smiled. I was so curious to know the source of transcending joy and peace. One day, He called me and asked me to stop declaring negative words over my life and to declare God's word. He then shared his testimony with me, I was very amazed, and it became an eye-opener that made me realize how great God is. During that time, I received a phone call from Prayer Warriors members who prayed for my total deliverance. I cried and screamed like a baby for hours and hours, but they continued praying for me. I felt super hurt, frustrated by how my life had been and tired of living a bitter life. And this embarked me on the journey of total deliverance.
Our weekly meeting gatherings were refreshing to my soul, and every preaching highlighted something critical in my life. I can never forget the passion and zeal of one group member toward the word of God in the Prayer Warrior’s group chat. He literally made the bible seem so interesting in a way that I had never seen before, and this became my turning point. I started reading the bible more often and believed every single word written in the Bible. I had never prayed alone for more than an hour, but I began to have personal prayers/devotionals for hours and hours. I opened and created a room in the chambers of my heart for the Holy Spirit to move. This was an incredible experience, Holy Spirit revealed to me all the lies of the enemy I had hidden in my life, and I prayed and removed every single of them in my heart. I cried tears of joy and rejoiced, for my eyes were open to the truth. And that was the day I truly experienced total deliverance and breakthrough.
After receiving my breakthrough, I extended my experience with Christ to everyone who joined our ministry. I never wanted someone else to live the lies and the bitterness I lived in. God gave me a new heart, new songs, and new testimonies. I believed that prophecy could impact your life once you accept, believe, and pray for the divine speed. I prayed about all prophecies spoken over my life, mainly those in the bible. I began to have personal encounters with Christ and heard God’s audible voice. My boldness increased, my love for God became stronger, and the zeal to serve, pray and fast was a priority and a necessity. I started to see miracles happening, prophecies come to pass, and my testimonies overflowed. Now I can truly testify that God heals, changes, and transforms. I am so thankful that God gave me Prayer Warriors, a mighty nation and a generation called to transform the world through the good news of Jesus Christ.
